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Dear Nise.
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but You’re a loser .I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds In your camping car and I saw you Sit on The crazy monk. I’m sure you’re Senile enough to understand That Extreme Home Makeover sucks enough . I’m returning The couch cushions to you, but I’ll keep Your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I Always wanted to break Oprah Winfrey imitations.

Fuck off now.
Marcus Foo
P/S: You are so lifeless, Silly duck, QUACK..

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___.
-Your name-
P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___,


1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - your dwarf bit me
April - I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - you put cuffs on me
July - I threw up
August - I saw the shrunken head
September - we skinny dipped
October - I quoted Santa
November - your dog ran amok
December - I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

I'm gonna tag:
Shaunie
CKK ( again, if you're reading this )
Shen Loong
Zen Jie
Wen Cheang ( if his blog still exists )
James Soong
Jon

Shaunie tag~

1. Whats the relationship between you and her/him?
Chocolate and Watermelon

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her
pretty, smart, positive, cute, short?

3. Most memorable things she/he has said to you
can't remember ><

4. The most memorable thing she/he has done for you
face up to her superiors for my sake?

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
LOL, yeah, that's what i'll do

6. If she/he became your enemy, you will..
remove my subconscious mind from reality, boo..

7. If she/he became your lover, she/he has to improve on..
not that great to mention in public, eh?

8. If she/he became your enemy, the reason is..
when I become her enemy, i'll list it down


9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
P & C <----LOL?

10. The overall impression on him/her is...
My prom date!

Tagged by Nise! ( again )

1. Whats the relationship between you and her/him?
BFFs!! <--Lol?

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
- Singaporean mix?
- My best bud
- EX - Love consultant
- Musician
- Macam - macam ada

3. Most memorable things she/he has said to you
" Fuck you lah". I practically hear that almost everyday.

4. The most memorable thing she/he has done for you
Staying alive?

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
Treat her like my lover la

6. If she/he became your enemy, you will..
Treat her like my enemy la

7. If she/he became your lover, she/he has to improve on..
Handling emotional stress

8. If she/he became your enemy, the reason is..
The reason is because she's my enemynemesis la

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
Lepak lah

10. The overall impression on him/her is...
Best friend?

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Like people around me.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
EMO

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Not focused enough, I can't focus, and make it happen.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
Ever heard of this guy named MarcusFuu? I wanna be just like him.

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
They care and like me?

10 people to tag.
-ShaWnie Ng
-Yi Ting
-CKK
-Jelly (If you're reading this)
-James
-Peachy
-Pav
-Shen Loong
-Eu Jonny Pet Pet
-Christopher

Who is No.2 having a relationship with?
Me, her family, friends

No.3 is a male or female?
LOL BOTH!!

If No.7 and No.10 were together, would it be a good thing?
It would be weird and interracial LOL?

How about No.5 and No.8?
It would be GAY

What is No.1 studying about?
Physiology of whatever interests her

Is No.4 single?
Nope, he's G*Y

Say something about No.6?
Ballet dancer

Portrait of an ENFP

Portrait of an ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Intuition with Introverted Feeling)

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The Inspirer

As an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.

ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others, more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything. They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it.

ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values.

An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving.

Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.

Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members.

An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems.

ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions.

ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships. Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences.

Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living.

ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.

Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves.

ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.

Jungian functional preference ordering for ENFP:

Dominant: Extraverted Intuition
Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling
Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking
Inferior: Introverted Sensing

ENFPs as Lovers

ENFPs make warm, considerate, passionate partners who are generally willing, eager, and able to do whatever it takes to make The Relationship a positive place to be. They are enthusiastic, idealistic, focused on other people's feelings, and very flexible. These attributes combine to make them especially interested in positive personal relationships, and also makes them very able to promote strong relationships in fun and creative ways. ENFPs take their commitments very seriously, and are generally deeply loyal and faithful to their partners.

There are a couple of difficult relationship areas for the ENFP. The first problem is that many ENFPs have a problem leaving bad relationships. They tend to internalize any problems and take them on their own shoulders, believing that the success or failure of the relationship is their own responsibility. As perfectionists, they don't like to admit defeat, and will stick with bad situations long after they should have left. When they do leave the relationship, they will believe that the failure was their fault, and that there was surely something they could have done to save the relationship.

On the entirely other end of the spectrum, many ENFPs have a difficult time staying focused and following things through to completion. If they have not focused on their ability to follow through, they may have problems staying in dedicated, monogamous relationships. They are so in tune with all of the exciting possibilities of what could be, that they will always fantasize about a greener pasture out there somewhere. If they are not paired with a partner who enjoys new experiences, or who shares their idealistic enthusiasm, the ENFP may become bored. The ENFP who is bored and who is not focused will be very unhappy, and will eventually "leave" the relationship if the problem is not addressed.

Since relationships are central to the ENFP's life, they will be very "hands on" and involved with their intimate relationships. They may be in the habit of constantly asking their partner how they're doing, what they're feeling, etc. This behavior may be a bit smothering, but it also supports a strong awareness of the health (or illness) of the relationship.

Sexually, The ENFP is creative, perfectionistic, playful and affectionate. Their rich fantasy world makes them fun and creative lovers, who usually have new ideas up their sleeves. They whole-heartedly embrace the opportunity for closeness with their mates, believing sexual intimacy to be a positive, fun way to express how much you love each other.

The ENFP needs to be given positive assurance and affirmation. More than one ENFP has been known to "go fishing" for compliments. They like to hear from their significant others that they are loved and valued, and are willing and eager to return the favor. They enjoy lavishing love and affection on their mates, and are creative and energetic in their efforts to please. The ENFP gets a lot of their personal satisfaction from observing the happiness of others, and so is generally determined to please and serve their partners.

A problem area for ENFPs in relationships is their dislike of conflict and sensitivity to criticism. They are perfectionists who believe that any form of criticism is a stab at their character, which is very difficult for them to take. Conflict situations are sources of extreme stress to the ENFP. They have a tendency to brush issues under the rug rather than confront them head-on, if there is likely to be a conflict. They are also prone to "give in" easily in conflict situations, just to end the conflict. They might agree to something which goes against their values just to end the uncomfortable situation. In such cases, the problem is extended and will return at a later time. The ENFP needs to realize that conflict situations are not the end of the world. They are entirely normal, and can be quite helpful for the growth of a relationship. They also need to work on taking criticism for what it is, rather than blowing up any negative comment into an indictment against their entire character.

Generally, the ENFP is a warm and affirming creature who is very interested and able to have an intense, meaningful, close relationship with their mate.

Tagged by Shyuan!

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What is it that bothers you the most?
My fish dying of old age, I'll miss you fishy.

2.What is your most favourite thing to do?
I have too many favourite things to do

3.What kind of news do you read?
World news

4.What is your ultimate wish?
P&C

5.Is there someone in your heart right now?
There's someone IN my heart?! Yeap, its you~ (other people don't perasan ah)

6.Do you believe you can survive without money?
If the whole world suddenly returned to the stone age, maybe

7.What are you afraid to lose the most?
Everything

8.What do you feel like doing right now?
Finishing off this tag

9.If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yes?

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
Girl, not boy, my childhood buddy

11.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
She already has them?

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
what the question?

13.If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Sushi

14.If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy

15.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Level of seriousness

16.How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Hopefully practicing medicine.

17.What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Nothing?

18.If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
I'll leave that one thing so that someone else can enjoy it?

19.What is the type of song you like to listen to (Music Genre) ?
Any

20. I tag:
ShaWnie Ng
Yi Ting
Coffee
Wen Cheang
Peachy

Blast From The Past.

Due to a previous occurrence, the old Marcus Foo has been revived. However I will not go into details on why this phenomenon has happened. Just to inform my fellow readers that:

THE OLD MARCUS FOO IS BACK, STRONGER THAN EVER!

Tagged by Nise!

1. Is anything wrong?
- yes

2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- yes

3. Do you want to go to college?
- duh?

4. How many kids do you want to have?
- 2 to 5?

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- kinda unsure

6. What did you do for your last birthday?
- erm, a trip to the Forest Reserve Institute of Malaysia(FRIM)

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- studying online.

8. Name something you cannot wait for?
- life

10. What is one thing you would change in your life?
- myself

12. Last thing you ate/drank?
- white wine

13. Whats your favorite month?
- the one with the most holidays, which I'm too lazy to figure out which

14. What is your least favorite month?
- the one with the least holidays, which I'm ALSO too lazy to figure out

15. Do you like peanut butter?
- the creamy type, not CHUNKY

16. Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
- my dog

17. Most visited web pages?
- my bloggy~

18. Last person to make you mad?
- can't really remember who made me mad last time

19. Pepsi or coke?
- Coke 4 life

20. Have you hugged anyone in the past week?
- matthew, YES, MATTHEW LIM CHIT KING

21. Fun thing to look forward to this week?
- figuring out assassin's creed.

22. What do you think about your siblings?
- FAT

24. Whats your favorite number(s)?
- 69 LOL

25. What do you do after school/college?
- breathe

26. Do you know how to swim?
- yes

27. Where were you born?
- assunta hospital, PJ

28. Do you have a crush?
- since 3 years ago.


FRIEND CONFESSIONS
1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
- no, not yet?

2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
- yeah, SHYUAN, THATS YOU!! XD

3. Are any of your friends taller than you?
- yeappp

4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend?
- ZEN JIE! LOL

5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized?
- yeah, many, i think

6. Have you lost or forgotten a friend's phone number?
- who doesn't?

7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
- not most of them

8. Do you love most of your friends?
- yeah, I love muh bros and sistahs.

HABIT CONFESSIONS
1. Do you play with things when nervous?
- unsure of the question

2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
- no, I actually have a phobia with knives.

3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
- closed, definately

4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?
- not discovered yet

5. What is your worst habit?
- sudden mood swings


LOVE CONFESSIONS
1. Do you currently like/love someone?
- yeah

2. Do you want to kill one of your exes?
- NOOOOOOO

4. Has one of your crushes ever called you self centered before?
- maybe?


PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
1. Do you think abortions are horrible?
- ethically yes.

2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad?
-neutral stand on this

3. Is pink an ugly color?
- no?

4. Needles aren't so horrible?
- only when they're used for the greater good, like sewing my underwear

5. You have plenty of secrets?
- a few


HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs?
- whoa, up and then down, down down and down

2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?
- eww, no

3.Have you ever slapped someone across the face?
- my brother maybe?

I tag :
Shawnie Ng
Shen Loong
Yi Ting
Coffee
Wen Cheang

Thoughts Written In Words.

I don't know what is it about you that attracts me to you.
I don't know what is it about you that gives me motivation.
I don't know what is it about you that keeps me going no matter what.
I don't know what is it about you that keeps me looking forward to the next day.
I don't know why am I still caught up with you although we're going nowhere.

But there's one thing that I DO know, and its the reason why I'll keep looking out for you till the end.

Devil May Cry 4 OST - The Time Has Come

The time has come and so have I,
I laugh last because you came to die.
The damage, the pain subsides
and I can see the fear clear when I look in your eyes.


I'll never kneel and I'll never rest,
you can tear the heart from my chest.
I'll make you see what I do best
I'll succeed as you breathe your very last breath.
Now I know how the angel fell,
I know the tale and I know it too well.
I'll make you wish you had a soul to sell,
whe I strike you down and send you straight to hell.

My army comes from deep within,
beneath my soul beneath my skin.
As You're ending i'm about to begin,
my strength's his Bane and I will never give in.

I tell you now Im one to survive
You'll never break my faith or my stride
I'll have you choke on your own demise
make the Angels scream, and the Devils cry.

Random Picture Post #2

I wont show you my evil eye~

EXCESSIVE MAKEUP FTW!!

Its not a finger that was used to purposely block the shot. Its HIS finger. LOL

Fucking Cheap Streamyx Modem

FUCK YOU WTFOMFG

Aku tengah emo nih.

WTF LVL 27 MAGIKARP!

It is.

It is.
By Lucas Koh Ewe Jon.

It's nice to know that you're secured with that someone. That even if the rain is pouring hard and the sky is almost dark, he'll never leave you just so you won't feel alone. Even if his friends had left him, even if he has to be somewhere else, he'd still stay by your side, just so you won't feel alone.

It's so good to know that you have someone who'll be willing to help you cope up in every frustration you're having. Every depressing moment, every down moment, every self-worthless-realization moment, he'd be there, not because you want someone to be with you, but because he wants to be with you.

It's great to know when a person appreciates every little thing you do. Even a smile would mean a lot to him, just because you own that smile. And that even if no words are expressed as long as the eyes understand, you'd be able to communicate, just like that.

It's overwhelming when a person tells you that he loves you for who you are. He may not have an answer when you ask him why, but really, he doesn't need to have reasons for loving you.

It's more grateful to know that someone is grateful to have you. We don't choose the people who enter our lives, so it must be luck that you have that person, then you have to be thankful. It may just be coincidence or fate, but whatever the reason is, you have to be thankful in having him the same way he is thankful for having you.

It's a wonderful feeling when you're on the verge of giving up the things you've worked hard for, someone isn't just helping you carry the weight on your shoulders, but he carries it on his own because he'd also be in pain when you are in pain. And then you'll realize, trials would all be worth it as long as you have him, not because he would do things for you, but because you gather all the strength you need, in him and his love.

It's a superb feeling when one is willing to take the risks just so you'll be happy. Unselfishness rules in him just so happiness would take over you.

It's a nice feeling that when you're apart, and days seem to be long, that person misses you. Yes, you might feel bad about not being with each other, but knowing that you feel the same way would drive those blues away, thinking, you'd fight over that feeling because you're looking forward to seeing each other, and that's something to be happy about.

It's a great feeling when he wants to be with you because of the happiness you have when you're together. That even if corny jokes and senseless stories are told, it won't matter as long as you're together.

It's a lovely feeling when someone thinks about your future, with or without him. He cares and he cares enough to think of you and what you'll be someday. But of course, he also wants to be in it someday.

It's a nice feeling when you can be who you really are with that person. No acts, no lies, no hypocrisy, because he accepts you for who you are. You can be funny, you can be embarrassed, but it won't matter cause it doesn't matter to him. Trust and faith in each other keeps you alive. And it will always do.

It's good to know that you have someone who doesn't have the intentions of breaking your heart. Instead, he would be willing to mend it, picking up the broken pieces of your heart that your past love have scattered in the ground. He may not be able to put the pieces back to where they really belong, but you shouldn't mind, because he had repaired that heart of yours, and he fixed it in his own way. He loves you in his own way, not the way your past did. He fixed your heart in a different way, to keep you from feeling the pains of your past heartache and to make you feel, the love, that he's unselfishly giving.

It's a great feeling when that person has every effort to let you feel what he feels for you. Because of the distractions, you may not hear him shout it to the world, but as long as you feel it, his efforts has paid off, big time. And when you feel the same way too... He'd feel as if he's the luckiest person alive.

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Makes you think, doesn't it?

A Very Dramatic Post.

I thought of posting one, but I guess I'll wait until that specific date. Feel the SUSPENSE!

Tagged By Shyuan.

RULE:Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits /things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names.No TAG backs!

1. I sleep without a shirt on.
2. I hug my dog to sleep sometimes.
3. I talk to my pets like friends.
4. I wish the world would be more user friendly.
5. I traded my driving license for my handphone.
6. I think of death most of the time.
7. I don't wear underwear when I sleep.
8. I cry when I watch dramas.
9. I regret every second of my existance, except when I'm making someone else happy.
10. I like orchestra music.
11. My homepage is YOUTUBE.
12. I trust people too easily.
13. I believe I'm worthless.
14. I have a few great friends, many average friends and fucking alot of assholes around me.
15. I wish I was more positive.


The 5 people I wanna tag:
Jew John
Jelly
Cheang
Shen Loong
Coffee

Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

This is about one of the best movies I've seen so far, so YOU should see it too!

My Will.

After hearing about so many cases about death around, I've decided to post my will JUST IN CASE something life threatening happens to me.

I'm leaving:

• my digital piano to Joshua John.
• my K770i to Kenx because he's so desperate for it.
• my computer to my brother.
• my hamsters to Matthew, Nise, Shyuan, Yi Ting, Shen Loong, Suban and Arif Sufyan.
• my turtles to my brother.
• my fish to Jelly.

If I we're to die in a car crash, just incinerate me and pour my ashes into the sea. Same goes from dying from a fall. If I we're to contract cancer, donate my body to the hospital for any medical means necessary. If I we're to die in my sleep, just bury me.

Above all that I want the Vertebrates to be at my funeral and include my relatives, Pn. Lim, Pn. Ong, Pn. Chan, Matthew, Kenx, Cawyn, James, Jon, Pooi Sing, -Nickster-, Pav, Peachy, Yasmin, Wen Han, Arif, Omar, Yi Ting, Shen Loong, Eu Jin, Jinn and Lam in the list as well. I don't any other fuckers coming to ruin my last event on Earth. And yeah, a CHRISTIAN priest too.

Random Post #3

OMFG ITS RANDOM PICTURES HOLY SHIT LOLOLOLBBQROXXORZZZZZZZWTFL33T!!

LOLWTF

Ignore the blue picture, it came along with the report.

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

We Hunger~

Lookit Me JohnnyBoy~

Gome Home on Friday and to Work on Monday.

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This too.

スーパーマリオでウエスタンショー (Western Show on Super Mario World)

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I just found this amusing. >:)

The Square Root of Three

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

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I <3 U

The Best Comic EVER!

Johnny The Homicidal Maniac.

This is my favourite comic of all time. Created by Jhonen Vasquez. He is also the same person who created the Invader Zim series. This comic is mainly about a teenager who thinks he's being controlled by some being behind a certain wall in his basement. Extremely aggressive, he goes around kidnapping people and brings them to his house to be extracted of their BLOOD ( OMG BLOOD ). Then he has to paint wall in blood so that the 'being' doesn't get out and destroy the world( or something like that ). Contents of this comic should not be read by those weak of heart.
BUT, if you DO want a copy, you can always ask me for one. =)

A scene from the comic. GAHH GORY..

Seminar Skor-A at UM.

Last Sunday, on the 20th of July, a few people and I attended a seminar at University MarcusFuu. Honestly, it was BORING and not worth the money(ugh) BUT I did have a good time camwhoring with muh buddies.

The third segment of the seminar, as you can see, theres only so much I can absorb for one day.

Sofia's HUGE sunglasses.

Malay and Chinese Kung Fu session.

Group Pic!

Emo time.

Another group pic!


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Thats only a FEW of the many CAMWHORE picture's I've taken so far. Just keep pressing that 'refresh' button, I know you WANT to.

PS: Thanks to Qisthina for leaving her blog open for me to steal pictures from.

Blog Re-opened To The Public.

Due to some particular circumstances, I've decided to re-open my blog to the public. Yes, all you curious bastards, your prayers have been answered.

My Final Expression.

When I said I was gonna get you a present, I meant it. I present my final expression to you. Happy Birthday.

"Separated : Part One"

Special thanks to my fellow Vertebrate™ member, WCheang, and Zenj too( Just trying to mend that permanent hole in your heart ).

Impressed?

Dear Yi Ting,

If you're impressed by THAT( PFFT ), I happen to have a piano piece to show you. As if THAT was impressive, again, PFFT~.



Additional Info,
Composed by Nobuo Uematsu.
Soundtrack of Final Fantasy VII : Advent Children.
Way better than that ( PFFT ) LP on Yi Ting's Blog

D:< *rawr*

Watch It, I Command You.

Watch the video to the END. Its hilarious.
Produced by Zenj and Fuu of the Vertebrates.



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*Wanna be a part of the Vertebrates™ ?

Requirement: A proper functioning Vertebrate.
Come for a walk in interview or contact these members of the club to arrange an appointment.

Fuu - 0122981073
Zenj - 0351229177
Cheang - 999
JJohn - 666

I Like Turtles

I Like Turtles.



I Like Turtles, The Sequel

To Shake Off the Mortal Coils.

To Shake Off the Mortal Coils

by Unknown author.

Last entry into a diary

A permanent solution to a temporary problem - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement of one's strength - at least mine. I cannot speak for all those others.

For all those others that take sleeping pills to attract attention.

For those that wait on the roof of a skyscraper until someone notices them to call the cops.

I can only speak for myself, and my decision is not based on weakness but on absolute power. Hamlet said it, Schopenhauer, Nietzsche, Camus and Sartre considered the question.

It is not based on weakness but on a free will, the liberty to contemplate the unthinkable. It is a question only the strongest can face.

They say it is easy to escape life but hard to go on with it. What fools. How many people can hold a gun to their head and pull the trigger?

How many can cut a knife into their arms to pierce arteries and veins?

How many can make the little step off a skyscraper?

How many can swallow the cyanide pill?

Small movements, a jerk of an index finger, a cut, a step, a swallow.

How many think they can do that but have to face their weakness on the doorsteps of a mysterious, scaring new existence?

How many have the mental strength to deal with such a decision?

How many can question their lives?

How many can face the fact that all they have done is useless and that there is no use apart from procreation -and what kind of a goal is that? Fucking, as the meaning of life. A goal for rabbits, for sheep, not for humans. And yet it is good enough for most.
To wait, to wait for something to come, to save them, something that does not exist, something that does not come. And so they keep on giving birth while standing on their graves, waiting like sheep.

How many can ask those questions?

How many can draw the consequences?

Those mentioned philosophers did not. None of them did agree to it in the end. None of them. Because suicide is wrong? Because as Nietzsche stated, the philosopher has to live his thoughts and hence set an example in dying. None of them were strong enough to do that. Whimps. Intellectual wankers, smart asses, suckers. Unworthy to have been read by me.

It is easy to live, to go on with it, to stand the treatmill. All you have to do is switch off your brains, not think, do what you are told and expected to and you will get old. There is nothing easier than living. Man is built to endure pain. He can easily bear the whips and scorns of time as long as he doesn't question them, and as long as he is not confident enough to wonder whether it is worth suffering. All it takes is to stick to the routine. There is nothing simpler than that.

Yeah, sure they will find reasons when they dig in my past. They will say:

He could not stand the pressure his profession had put on him, he had always suffered from depression, he was suffering from a broken heart when his girlfriend left him. He could not stand loneliness, unrequited love of all sorts. He was too sensitive.

Those would be their words.

Bullshit.

And they will be feigning sympathy and compassion, they will look at the art, the literature and state how great it was, what a loss it is, what a great future lay ahead of him.

The sympathy of the deaf, dumb and blind, the braindead, the sympathy of the hens in the battery.

This is not the reason.
Sure, I am bleeding all over the place, sure I am suffering from pressure, sure I have always been depressed, sure all of this is true. But it is not the reason. I am not doing this out of pain. This is a decision based on positivity. Lust for life. But not that stale and dull life. Real life, genuine emotions.

To shake off this mortal coil,
To step up to the Gods and to spit in their faces,
To make the final decision, the only one that cannot be undone.
Knowing that it might be a terrible mistake, a Faustian mistake, a bargain with the devil.
A voluntary step into something unknown.
Emptyness?
Heaven?
Hell?

Suicide is not based on weakness, it is based on absolute power - at least in my case.

Imagine:

To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
The only truth left in a world of lies and hypocrisy.
The beauty of the abyss.
The anticipation, like anticipating the greatest sex, an existential foreplay.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling eternity in a restricted world.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.

To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air like the cartoon characters on TV,
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To gain speed,
To have the air tear at your hair and clothes,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
To scream in orgiastic excitement,
To know what you have done,
To know that you have done something for once.

Maybe even: To doubt,
To regret,
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak that you are pacing away from.
Mercilessly
To fly into annihilation,
To see the truth, whether it is a beautiful or an unbearable truth for the fraction of a second only.

Those 10 seconds would be - must be - will be much more revealing than 10 years of most other people,
Than the whole life of most other people. More true, essential, focused, divine. Purer. 70 years forced into seconds. Refined into pure knowledge and truth.

Those 10 seconds would be - must be - will be worth a lifetime.

A worthy payment for endless agony

No more endless, unbearable pain.
No more routine.
No more repetition.
No more

-- Peace.

To sleep, perchance to dream.

To give in to the tiredness.

To fall asleep.

To find solace.

No more agony.

To end.

The end.

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So don't discriminate a person just because he believes that suicide isn't a wrong thing to do. Perhaps its just a way out which many fail to accept or see. Truly fits my opinions. Bravo.

Funny Stuff.

I was surfing looking for some stuff when I found this thing called 'Cool Ways to Kill Yourself'.
I'm just gonna post up the ones I found funny.

Intro:
Cool Ways to Kill Yourself

©1995, Scott Christensen, all rights reserved.

Life Got You Down?

If you've been a little depressed lately and have contemplated partaking in the bliss of death, here are some suggestion on how to kill yourself. Even if you don't use these exclusive royalty free suicide methods, remember to do it as creatively as possible.

Don't be boring and just take sleeping pills, go out with style and flare. All these methods require some planning but don't let that dissuade you. Your life must be pretty pathetic if you're killing yourself. Why not leave a legacy?

Explosives Strapped to Your Body

Difficulty level: 7

1. Get a LOT of explosives. The more the better.
2. Hook up a detonator to an altimeter. Set it for 100-200 feet. That will give you good dispersion.
3. Mix vaseline and gasoline in a bucket.
4. Find a really tall building. Something like the World Trade Center (not anymore, but you get the idea smarty pants) is perfect and is in a sufficiently crowded area to generate the proper sized crowd.
5. Get an extra large trench coat, ski mask, duct tape and a very reliable wind-proof lighter. Torch lighters are best.
6. Bring your materials to the top of your building. Liberally apply the vaseline-gasoline mixture to your entire body. Duct tape the explosives around your legs, arms, head and torso. The more explosives you use, the better. Attach the altimeter to the explosives.
7. Put on the trench coat and mask so that the explosives are not visible.
8. Start ranting and throwing things so that you are sure to attract notice. Drag this part out as long as possible. Say anything that comes to mind but try to stay away from real problems. Your love life does not make for a good sound bite, something about trees telling you to kill yourself works good. Ask for news cameras from the major networks, so you can warn them of the coming tree invasion. Pace around while waving your arms and pointing a lot. If there are trees around, point at them.
9. DO NOT let on that you have explosives on your body. The police will clear the area and you definitely don't want that.
10. When you've gotten the crowd to a fevered pitch, when the helicopters are hovering like vultures, whip off the jacket and set yourself on fire.
11. Wait until you are completely engulfed in flame then jump.
12. Try to steer yourself towards the people in the crowd who are chanting 'jump, jump, jump'. That way flaming falling body parts will pelt them when you explode. If you used enough explosives, everyone within seeing distance will have a piece of you.
13. Congratulations! You've just made history. I bet it feels good just thinking about it. But don't cheer up, there are plenty of other ways to do the deed.

Falling through Chain Saws

Difficulty level: 10

This is much more difficult to pull off. Instead of explosives, the money shot is you falling though three or four operating chain saws. You do not need as high a building for this --- anything above three stories will do. Remember to use the vaseline-gasoline mixture. That's the ingredient that adds pizazz.

Bullet in Your Head

Difficulty level: 1

>HAMMER<>

Meat Grinder(SUPER FUNNY)

Difficulty level: 11

Find a sausage making company that has a giant meat grinder. Set up a hidden video camera to tape your death. Leave a will with explicit instructions that it not be read until one year after the night of your grinding. In it, detail the way you died and the location of the hidden camera.

Sneak in at night naked and turn on the video camera. Climb into the grinder and take massive amounts of pills of your choice. Make sure it is enough to kill you.

In the morning you will be ground up and made into sausages. One year later your will, will be read to the news media and people all around the nation will vomit simultaneously.

Drown in Your Own Urine

Difficulty level: 8

Get a huge vat or possibly an above ground pool. Save all your urine. Drown yourself in it. Put a note on the side of the pool saying, "MY URINE."

This method would work for any body fluid: vomit, snot, dooty. For you despondent guys out there: A vat of your own sperm would be truly impressive. You will have to get some viagra and work frantically for years, but what else have you got to do?
Pop into alt.binaries.erotica.bestiality, get the vibrator out and get crackin'. Remember, do something really weird and original, something that will tell them you are/were special.

End the Holiday Madness

Difficulty level: 6

Anyone with half a brain hates the Thanksgiving to Christmas season. There is too much family. Too many happy annoying people demanding things from you. Too much forced joy specials on television. And WAY too many repetitions of songs you've been listening to since childhood.

The only way to escape this recurring nightmare is to:

1. If you have any investments, convert them to money. Take all your money and lose it playing online poker . This is especially important if you are well off. Don't tell family members and other greedy people that would profit from your demise. After you die, they will go crazy trying to find the missing money. They may even kill each other. This will bring you satisfaction, maybe even some companionship, in hell.
2. Now, stick your head in the turkey just after it comes out of the oven, preferably during the Christmas Day family gathering but a Thanksgiving Day end may also serve your purposes. Your timing really depends on your own peculiar circumstances.
3. Run around banging into family members all the while flailing your arms and yelling obscenities. You can never go wrong flailing your arms when trying to kill yourself. The more flailing the better.
4. Go into a room that can be easily locked so you won't be accidentally saved by well meaning but inconsiderate friends or family members.
   [Alternatively you can just flee the house and run through the streets aimlessly until you pass out. NO ONE in a large city will ever go near someone with a steaming turkey on his head. If you live in a wooded or rural area the best thing to do would be to run off into the wilderness so your body can be found with all sorts of gnaw marks on it from the multitude of animals that will flock to your decaying carcass (and the turkey's too).]
5. An interesting footnote to this holiday might be to swallow a large number of Christmas ornaments (lights, small Santa dolls, actual fruit cake) before you follow your bliss. Give your family and friends (if you have either) something to discuss the following year.

Funny, no? Methods just too cool for me. :D

Woot.

4 sleepless days, WHATTA RECORD MANNNNNNN~!!

Back To Where We Started.

I told her I loved her,
She said she did too,
I said I could wait another 4 months,
She said it probably won't happen,
And I couldn't accept what she said,
I don't know WTF is going on and whats my next move,
But currently suicide is on the list.

Problem Settled...?

Today after 20 grueling minutes of trying to dig the truth out, I finally got her to say it.
The problem now is, is she just saying that for the moment, or does she really mean it?
Currently, I have no idea how am I supposed to feel.

a) Happy?
or
b) Sad?

Turning to a More Easier Method of Relief?

For the past few weeks, I've been really EMO as most of you know, and I've been thinking of ways to be happy. I already watched anime, played the piano and computer. To think I'd actually think of smoking but I turned SHISHA. Its an activity supposedly not as dangerous as cigarettes (as described by Matt), but Nick( NOT Kota Kemuning Nick, its some other guy in Subang, yes, hi Nick) said I shouldn't do it anymore as it is actually a unfiltered form of tobacco smoking. FYI, cigarettes HAVE filters. Though I made a promise, I am that EMO to that extent, sorry Nick.

Coming soon : Shisha PICS!!

SOGEKING!

Losing Everybody One By One.

Anyone of you had the feeling of losing a best friend? What about losing that particular person to a bunch of inconsiderate jerks? Yes, I lost someone who I would've given the privileged to read my blog. Yes, I do miss her company at times but she'd rather hang out with THOSE people. Boo~

Thanks to Yi Ting's help I could finally sleep as my thoughts and doubts have been cleared out. Since I'm in a good mood today, and possibly for the next week, I'll try muh best to win that RM500-RM1000 prize at a DotA competition(at a church...) and I'll treat you, yes YOU people.

=)

...?

First and foremost, I would like to welcome the exclusive readers of my blog. Yay~

Some of you can already guess the reason I'd make my blog private. You know who's its related to la, MOSTLY.

For my first private post, I wanna exclaim my gratitude to those I've invited to this blog. Although SPM's getting closer and we're gonna grow apart by the next year, I wanna say that you guys make changes in my life for teh better and I kinda feel I don't appreciate you people enough. Just feeling semi-emo and wanna say sorry for anything I might have done that have caused some discomfort to some of you( except Zen Jie : Yes, I still think you're gay).

I truly love all of you from the bottom of my heart(s). Thanks.
PS: I'm not a homosexual. Zen Jie is.

Kota Kemuning

Kota Kemuning - Klang Valley's Finest.

Yes, this is the township where I reside. Where nothing works out and everything goes wrong. Squirming with Mapeks yet we Cina people make it by a long shot. Not to mention the higher standard Inapeks, heck they're doing well on their own. But yet, Kota Kemuning is a depressing place, no? I'm sure Shen Loong agrees with me. :)

Fuck You KK.

Tagged By The Semi-Jew

Tagged by semi-jew-john. I'll be totally honest in this whole questionnaire.

1) What do you want the most now?
-Possibly a Subway sandwich, damn those sandwiches are THE BEST.

2) Who is the person you trust most?
-All these experiences I've been through, I've learnt not to trust too many people. The person I trust the most would be Denise.

3) Are you in love?
-Pfft, you tell me.

4) If you can have a dream come true, what is it?
-The power to correct my mistakes before it happens.

5) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
-If you're lucky, yes.

6) What's your goal for this year?
-Get good enough results in SPM to advance to medical school.

7) Do you believe in eternity?
-Yes, in different perspectives.

8) Have you ever broken a person's heart that he/she wants to commit suicide?
-Unsure about this, maybe?

9) What kinds of feelings do you love the most?
-Linked feelings with another special person.

10) What are the requirements from your other half?
-I could write out a list, but I'll give you the general stuff; loyal, trustworthy, willing to take chances, a FEMALE and a good attitude.( Attitude > Looks)

11) What kinds of feelings do you hate the most?
-The feeling that always bugs me is disappointment when you realize you don't really have to exist but, YOU STILL DO.

12) Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
-Yes and no. There are some friendships worth cherishing, and there are those faggots who I don't really give a shit about whether they're alive or dead. If you feel hurt reading this, you're possibly one of those faggots.

13) What do you want to do in the future?
-Medicine, to help people in need. Money doesn't fulfill everything. The satisfaction of helping another person is almost about what I need to carry on.

14) What is the most important thing in your life?
-The most important thing in my life would be the internet. Countless web pages of information at your fingertips, what could be better.(Note: THING is an inanimate object or organism)

15) What did you feel last night?
-I felt like sleeping.

16) Who do you hope to be always there for you?
-Nobody, I don't expect much.

17) When do you think the world will end?
-Not in my lifetime.

18) The world ends tomorrow. What will you do?
-Call up everyone I love and hate, giving off happy wishes and wait for that final second.

19) What do you think of the person who tagged you?
-Well, he's a racist semi-jew, THATS FOR SURE.

20) What do you want to know right now?
-Everything about her.

Add 6 people in your list and list them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged.

I'm tagging:
Peachy, Justina, Shen Loong
I don't want to bother troubling anyone else.